More later

Just felt like writing a little. My sister is safely in Thailand and she seems to really be enjoying herself. All of the pictures I've seen are beautiful. If I lived in Cha am, I would always be out and about walking or shopping or swimming. It would be very difficult for me to become domestic at such a place.

Yesterday was the first day I had an entire class of Pre-K kids to myself which means I need to start putting the fear into them. A lot of them do listen to me, but some of them still think they can do whatever they want because I'm new. I'm much less reserved about yelling at them at this point because I know all of their names and know that they are all lovely kids. Kids don't really hold grudges. It's like their memory is wiped clean after they sleep like in the movie 50 First Dates, and once they are rested they are no longer cranky for a while.

(Continued on January 24, 2010)

The weekend has been extremely cathartic for me. I've been working on a lot of little projects here and there. Nothing too important, but it's nice to finally wrap everything up and prepare for a new week without so much baggage. I completely organized under my bed (I don't think all the crap under my bed has ever been organized) and that feels great. I talked with an old roommate of mine and caught up with her. She mentioned how much more difficult it is to find social opportunities when you're moved back in with your parents. It was easy in college, but I'm starting to like the idea of being more proactive in terms of meeting new people. I'm also taking a break from knitting and painting for a bit because I'm back in a weekly routine. It feels wonderful, but I'm definitely not giving anything up for good. I also finished writing a short book. Well, almost finished. It still needs to be bound lol.

This upcoming week I start tutoring which I'm really excited to do. I will mainly be helping this kid with spelling which I'm generally good at, but I'll probably also be assisting with math homework and that won't be fun for me. I realize it won't be too advanced for me, but I still hate math. I'm trying to be more open about it. Maybe I could try to develop techniques that make math fun for him. I don't know. I wish I had School House Rock videos I could loan him. That's how I learned my multiplication. Apparently he's pretty good at math, but he still doesn't really want to do it. I don't blame him.

Halloween and my new heated blanket

I'm not tired so I'll ramble. Halloween and this weekend have been fun. I feel like I've cheated myself out of a holiday if I don't do at least one festive thing for Halloween. Last Thursday I went to a party hosted by UMSL's radio station. My friend got a tarot card reading which was really enjoyable to witness. I can never fully believe that stuff since I don't know much about it, but I still sort of half believe it. I can't quite explain, but maybe I just find the wicca stuff fun and interesting. Then Friday I had a relaxing dinner with my parents. We had some nacho dip, split a lean pocket (hooot pockeeeet), and a California Pizza Kitchen pizza. It was amazing. Halloween was enjoyable because the weather was very permitting, and a friend and I even went trick or treating. I can't remember the last time I did. Perhaps it was middle school, but trick or treating is not much of an issue for me seeing as though I look to be middle school aged. I wore a werewolf mask to make it foolproof though. At about our seventh house, a lady started to question where we were from so that concerned us. People were really nice, but we didn't want our 22 year old asses to be suspected so we enjoyed the candy we procured which was quite a lot.

Last morning I slept way the hell in and just wanted to lie in bed all day. I've been complaining to my mom recently that I'm always cold at night even with tens of blankets. I even wrote a silly, silly poem about my ~pain and suffering~ one night...

I put my hand to my face

between my cheek and pillow.

I don't know if my hand is now

warm or my face now cold.

How strange that the climates

of my body are changed

at the edges

on such a still nighttime

yet my mind is boiling

fueling only

the deep of me.

So my mom surprised me with an electric blanket. I've been too lazy to set it up today. Maybe I'll attempt to after this post. If I can't get it to work tonight then at least it's another blanket.

a humbling rant...

Fall is really pretty, I just don't like that it's always kind of dark. I'm picky with my weather. So today I decided to be old school by lighting candles all around my room to brighten it up a bit. I'm watching them closely because I'm a bit paranoid though. It's fun and cozy.

Short rant: Why do I only cook/bake when I'm really hungry or tired? This is a BAD IDEA. Today I decided to make muffins with only a cake mix, water, and pumpkin filling which is really delicious. But I was so hungry and frustrated that when I tore open the cake mix bag it ended up spilling everywhere, and my dog started licking some of the chocolate mix off the floor. I was so distraught while I was cleaning it up that I didn't notice how much she licked up, but she's doing fine and my mom told me not to worry about it. It didn't seem like too much and she's not puking. So I'm not worried about that. Then I baked the muffins and got so impatient and hungry that I took them out at the soonest moment and started eating a couple. Of course they were crumbly and fell all over the place but I did not care anymore. The point is that I'm too old and sophisticated to be making food this way. I may as well be licking mix off the floor like my dog. And THAT is why I should only be making stuff in the kitchen when I'm just kind of hungry or planning ahead. THE END.

National Park memories

So I really want to buy my parents the Ken Burns National Parks DVDs for Christmas or something. The special is airing this week, and my dad is watching it pointing out all these places we've seen. He gets so excited about seeing places he took us growing up. Right now the DVDs are expensive. Like, I never spend that much money on one thing ever. Since I'm jobless and thrifty, I just don't do it. But I really want to buy this for my parents because they are good parents and I never do anything out of the ordinary for them. I mean, I'm not a bad daughter; I just think that I could surprise them for once. It would be my way of saying 'thank you for making it possible to see the country'. The DVDs do not compare to all the fun, well planned vacations we took, but it is something.

time to keep it real

Okay, it's time to keep it real. More of my friends are using blogspot so I thought that this would be a nice opportunity to "revamp" mine. It started out as an extra blog for myself, but I have written journals for that very purpose. I thought about just watching other blogs in a separate account and continue to keep this one more private, but there's nothing to keep private lol. I love blogging, so maybe this will allow me to do it more frequently. Maybe I'll actually update for real now!

I may go back and delete my previous emo entries which I started writing when I began college, but maybe not.

Resurrecting my blog.




Maybe.

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